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blinkanditsgone
08 January 2008 @ 11:06 am
 it's over......and it's all my fault. i couldn't have just held on, and kept my mouth shut and enjoyed it while it lasted???? nope. i had to say something to him, now it's over....
 
 
blinkanditsgone
02 January 2008 @ 10:54 am
why do i have to fuck EVERYTHING up!!!!!!! i did it again, but this time, i don't know how to get out of it....he's pissed this time, and I'm not sure how i feel about it. i want to feel bad and i think i should, but i don't....is that really wrong?
 
 
blinkanditsgone
04 December 2007 @ 10:56 am
ok so school's not fun. physics, my teacher has a problem with Star Wars, and math, ewww seriously, nough said. anyway. in a huge fight with a lot of people right now. my best friend was being a bitch for, quite a while, and letting a boy (considerably older than she) control her life. It was getting ridiculous, and i couldn't take keep secrets for her anymore. so i guess you could say one thing led to another, and she got in trouble. and now she hates me. which, wow, go figure. no surprised by that, but the thing is, she's still begin a bitch about this, she even told her precious little boyfriend that she has no plans of ever trying or makign any effort to fix anything with me. so i guess im at the point of no return. yes, i still have friends, that's not the point. the point is she was my best friend, like a sister to me. and as soon as she gets in trouble, instead of being a normal person!!! and being slightly sorry for what she did or even just being upset, she starts talking shit on me, like right away. so now everyone she hangs out with, conveniently hates me. and i don't like when people hate me. so her little boyfriend is up my ass now pissing me off, and so is my "boyfriend." cause my boyfriend, and my ex-best friends boyfriend are like best friends, well they used to be at least, until this happened.now my boyfriend's friend is being an asshole, and doesn't want him takling to me, but he wants to, but i told him that he needs to fix things with his best friend before he worries about anything with me. so he is. i guess. so this is depressing. i don't even have him anymore to talk to....
 
 
Current Mood: worriedworried
Current Music: so much love- the rocket summer
 
 
blinkanditsgone
21 November 2007 @ 10:18 am
ahhhh i hate mornings. ok so i worked from 2-10 last night and it was hell. there are soooo many crazy people in the world, idk how they all wait until the last minute to get all their turkey's. don't those things have to thaw for like 3 days? haha. oh well. so when there's that many people there, all my friends could be working with me, and work would still suck. my boo came to see me though, so that was fun, only up until i walk in the door, after taking a half an hour break (breaks are only 15 mins) and the front end manager is staring at me, i was like uh oh, i didn't do it. haha. yea that was a little weird, but I'm glad he came to see me. So i was woken up this morning by this little posse of construction workers walking around my house. haha. creepy. of course it was my father's fault. he calls people for consults, and forgets about it. haha. he called the police, not sure why, but they called me and i just said, ummm yea they left. and she said, oh. ok then. haha. it was pretty funny i gotta say. haha. ok. well. I'm pissed that it's 10.30 and I'm up, I'm supposed to be sleeping still. oh well. ok. another 2-10 tonight. and my bff's gonna be there....not really, i actually hate him with a passion. hopefully he won't have the balls to look at me let alone say anything to me.....that's it for now. time to eat!
lovezzz
 
 
Current Mood: awakeawake
 
 
blinkanditsgone
19 November 2007 @ 01:12 pm
it's just one of those days. I'm off all week. My best friend and I hate each other, soooo, i guess we're never talking again. She's mad, and now she's getting other people involved, which is pissing me off really bad. She's having her bitchy little friends fight her battles. And if that's how she wants to play, fine by me. It's over, and I guess that's just how it's gonna be now. I'm bored out of my mind, need to get out of the house. Think I'll just go for a drive. Yep, sounds good. Keep updated. Oh yea, 115 days till ESPANA!!!!
 
 
blinkanditsgone
18 November 2007 @ 05:02 pm
so im alone. i haven't talked to the love of my life in way too long, and i have no one to cry to. i think i need a nap.
 
 
Current Mood: depresseddepressed